***Caution***
Language may become...erm..."empassioned".
2-17-02 "GGs and their Dollies"
Do you want to know what makes me not just ill, but violently angry? Genetic girls who pretend to like dressing boys up in girly clothing, but scream, cry, and run if said boy enjoys it. You've seen them, I'm sure. Older sisters, early girlfriends, it doesn't matter. All of them make me want to commit mayhem.
I've heard the tales, I've even watched it happen. Oooooo, two of my "friends" (one a roomate) were dressing the little brother of yet another roomate. They fussed and cooed over him, petted and preened. I told them both off and ignored them for the remainder of the evening as I know neither of them actually like men who cross-dress. Both had drilled and dismissed me on how I could possibly enjoy it myself. There was no mistake in their intent.
Why do they do this? I think it's because they're petty and feel powerless. Some women believe they are the weaker sex, all put upon and whatever tripe they dig up for the moment. They develop a fit of the vapors and feel sorry for themselves since they refuse to fulfill their own potential. Lost in their own little world of "woe is me" they seek to demean men in the only way they know how. They view womanhood as a curse and they want to inflict it on those they feel hold power over them. Weak women suck.
Now we all know that strength knows no gender. The only thing that brings weakness in the individual. Women who seek to dress men as a punishment deserve my big-ass platform boots buried so soundly in their behinds I can use them as stalkings. They can't bring themselves above their own self-inflicted morass of misery so they seek to bring others down to the worst Hell they can imagine. Femininity is not an insult (well, not usually).
In closing, if you are one of those poor darlings misfortunate enough to have run across one (or more) of these women, don't let it hurt you. They didn't react with horror to your joy because there is anything wrong with you, or because you are abnormal. They recoiled because they are jealous that you can find joy in what they feel is a curse. Females like that look at your wistful smile and hate you because they won't let themselves enjoy what comes effortlessly to you. Thank them for the make-up tips and know that you are better than they are. You know how to love yourself.
3-23-01 "Purging"
*sigh* Where should I start with this? Purging is one of the most distastful things I can think of. "Why" is all I can ask, as I really don't understand. Now I know what "reason" someone might have for doing it, but when it comes down to the core no "reason" is good enough. Purging is draining on the soul, and spirit. Besides, it's damned expensive.
"I feel guilty." "It hurts my loved ones." Right. And so do I on occasion, but tell me truthfully, is it wrong to be who you are if no one gets hurt? Now if you were into raping people I'd say "Go to Hell and cut it out!", but crossdressing?? This is wrong how? You like the way you look in eyeliner, who does this hurt? Closet dresser, or a full out-on-the-town girl, it's the same thing. You enjoy something that causes no pain to anyone. Some people may act all offended and say they are hurt, but how? Did you smack them in the face with your falsies? Or are these people just so petty and shallow that they can't wrap their narrow little minds around the fact that not everyone enjoys the same thing. I don't like football, does that mean that you can't? Tell them to love you or bugger off.
"It's not normal." *stifles an unlady-like snort* Neither is my hair color. But, ya know what? You aren't the only one. Even if you were, individuality and free will are God-given gifts. If you were gifted with the ability to migrate between genders, enjoy it to the fullest! "Normal" can suck my lilly-white ass. Be true to who you are and take nothing for granted.
"Girls/Boys don't like it." Helllllooooo. Are you not actually reading this page then? If you've seen anything else in here you know that isn't true.
In closing, puring is silly. You'll always go back, you can't deny who you are. Even if you could, why lie to yourself? I work at an adult video store and every day I see people who are in denial about or uncomfortable with their sensuality. I feel pain every time I see this. At ground zero, you are the only one you'll hurt doing this. If you have to purge, don't throw everything away. Box it up, give it to a trusted friend, and give yourself a breather. I've watched people recover from a purge and it is arduous at best. So listen to your heart, not the din of the "moral majority". You are you and that is precious.
