COZMIC CRAZY BLUES in Aquarius Psychofobia & wild emotions
by M Spun
What is craziness in the age of Aquarius now? an altered state of being, mind, extreme feeling or loss of self-control? A subjective need or judgement, a moral choice, an emotional strangness or what? Are you afraid of craziness? or crazy people or feelings herenow? I’ve been mildly crazy, especially laffing hysterically since childhood. But i stuffed my emotions otherwise to be good for social approval to belong. I’ve been consciously researching insanity for 25 years now, going crazy many times, knowing 100s of nutty souls, & even visiting friends in mental hospitals under shrinks control. However most my insanity was emotional healing crises, not a nervous breakdown or freak-out, as defined by psychiatry.
So here’s a survey of varieties of crazy attitudes you may have about the different kinds of insanity, i call psychofobia, fears of:
1. Freaking out, loosing self control, emotional spasms, breakdown, hypermanic, hysterical, totally lost, depressed, suicidal, frantic, panic 2. Normal denial of raw strong flooding emotions overwhelming self, wild instincts, dreams, total needs or fears of nature, dark, god, death
3. Angry violence, threatening or abusing others or self; punishing, attacking, hurting, torchure, fighting, war, violent fantasies or killing nature by hunting, clear-cut logging, shooting, stealing & destroying
4. Spiritual visions, age-regression, primal screaming, emotional releasing, psychic, bliss, trances, rebirth, vision quests, healing skills.
5. The normal civilized over-consuming & polluting our farms land, forests, soils, water, homes, yards, parks, bodies, foods & air by toxics blindling denying it hurts us & nature. The big 7 poisons are: nuclear powers, military, transportation, big schools, BIG science, esp. medicine & competitive sports & business. If you protest these popular progress its crazy, illegal & imoral to even question the authority to control earth.
My craziness really began in ‘71 when meditating, taking LSD & studying many radicals. Then my wife split, taking our 2 boys, so i sobbed for hours & meditated afterwords(cosmic blues)was clearing my karma up & inspiring me about lifeworks & freeplay. It released some macho blocks, so i could do yoga, free dancing, camp-out alone & do soul seaching love feelings. Also began vegetarian, no hating or cutting hair/shaving, massage & cooperating in community peace service works i volunteered for, while naturalizing my needs & lifestyles simply. I fasted 1 day/week for over a year, to learn about food, desire & let go.
In summer of ‘71 i got a cosmic gut ach while reading the Primal Scream(therapy)book by Art Janov, & did 2 weeks of needing, crying & screaming alone in a friends apt. which freed me up to play & learn! I also took LSD about monthly to deepen my meditation, melt ego fears, & further simplify living free. Gardian angels were silently guiding me thruout this exploring consciousness, in nature & with co-op friends & lovers, so i wasn’t busted or put-away for craziness. I was beginning to be a loving counselor, emotional healer & co-tripper in lifenergy, helped by 100s of hippies, angels & OPEN newage teachers of evolutionary energy patterns. A few friends were hospitalized for insane behavior & ideas, drugged & i helped them out of there. I’m still thankful everyday for all the lessons, bliss & creative surges like rite herenow, as i’m channeling & healing my body stress, the universe supports new awareness & love for the mother of all that is! WOW! i am one, U R 2.
Becoming a hippy was/is natural & rebellious, too crazy for the strait & square world to like or tolerate in all civilizations we’re the outsiders, gypsies, pagans, savages, primatives, natives, Sanyasins, etc. Hippies are a new breed of nature spirit lovers, in the newage nowera. We were hospital born, bottle & junk fed, TV war babies, choosing to drop out of modern traditions & family security, into freedom in nature & peace & love. 100,000s of us were/are jailed for these radical (instinct) departures from the norm, labeled illegal, imoral & insane activities. The ‘Woodstock generation’ of rock & roll, parties. drugs & freelove are disgusting to the conformers, shaming their parents & inspiring to many soul seekers of our true nature evolving in the open universe.
The most extreme natural forms of free healing ways are crazy to the scientific & religious folks depending on big brothers control bias. Here’s a few crazy needs we have in cycles:
1. Fasting, raw foods, fruit juice diets to clean out & be healthy
2. Nudity outdoors, in nature, in the sun, free flowing bodies
3. Peeing on the ground, trees or compost pile/pits, burying poop
4. Retreating into nature alone to camp out, vision-quest meditate
5. Openly crying & screaming out pain, fears, needs for open love
6. Deep nude body work energy massage to release blocks & fears
7. Urin therapy, drinking ones pee & using it for cleaning & health
8. Loving the godus, mother earth, Astrology, tribaliving natives
9. Bisexual - loving both sexes, touching, affection & deep needs
10. Joining a radical/ natural spiritual community of open hearts
11. Doing natural home/water birthing with family & midwives, etc
12. Organic gardening, Permaculture, outdoor living naturally now
These are what hippies & newage seekers are into in infinite variety of energy cycles, as our tribal ancestors been doing for centuries now in the age of Aquarius. We are cooperating, rejecting competition with moneytime games that rule the business worlds. So millions of us have traveled to & stayed in E Asia, India, Mexico, Indonesia, the wilderness, Pacific & Caribean isls, Cent. & So.America, to see & learn & practice naturaliving spiritual work & family/neighborhood cooperation simply.
Its a miracle where we grow a center of awareness, after being brain trained to conform to the common fears of civilized cultures of:
*HOMOFOBIA - scared of touching same sex, & feeling attracted to
*ECOFOBIA - fears of nature: dirt, poop, pee, animals, storms, rot, big waves, landslides, tornadoes, thunder/lightening, dark, blood, slime, wet, mud, snow, ice, earthquakes, floods, bugs, spiders, snakes, freezing- cold, sunshine, sweat, BO, open sky, huricanes, falling trees, birds, etc.
*MICROFOBIA - afraid of unseen, microscopic germs, bacteria, virus, VD/STD, AIDS, rot, mucus, infections, puke, nuke radiation, toxins, etc
*NUDITY - being naked in sex, public & nature, with people, strangers
*PSYCHOFOBIA - fears of going crazy, crying, loosing control, total emotions, screaming, wild laffing, no time, visions, deep breathing, wild dancing, heavy anger, psychedelics, commitment to asylum, tickling, isolation with feelings alone, without help, comfort or freedom to move
*LAWS JAIL - cops arrest, judges, courts, trails, convictions, prisons, punishment, guilt, bad record, crimes,
*REJECTION - rejecting or say NO, being rejected, banished, sentaway
*PAIN - hurting self or others, risking injury to grow or learn or heal, wild playing, adventuring to discover new nature, abilities or meanings
*POVERTY - starvin to death, bankruptcy, no money & credit security begging, no property/home, total scaricty, not enuf, status, wealth $$
DEATH - meditation, God, hell, the end, nuclea war, unconscious, hypnosis, the dark nature nite, murders, being held down, unknowns
THESE all fade away or return in patterns & needs & feelings in our natural healing process of opening up to karmic causes & effects of love.
Whose the craziest people you know of, artists: Sal Dali, Piccasso, David Bowie, Robin Williams, Alice Cooper, GErmain Greer, Yoko Ono, Kate Millet, Jethro Tull, Anne Lennox, Steve Martin, Lilly Tomlin, Gabriel Roth, Rolling Stones, Eddie Murphy, Richard Pryor, George Carlin, or ?
OR the Earth Firsters, Primal screamers, 20K+ Mtn climers, pastlife regressers, Tenn. Farm hippies, ganga growers, dolfin swimmers, snake charmers, natural shamen, racecar drivers, sky divers, lion tamers, downhill skiers, sundancers, Amazon & African & Tibetan trekers, hempsters, solo sea sailors, bungy junpers, long fasters, vision questers, rocket builders, ????????
WHO R U now? I am a malamad, madzub, heyoka, dervish, dork, spun soul, soil lover, divine drunk, trance junky, goofi sufi, organic fanatic, avathoot, tantric spirit, happy heritic, freelover, wounded healer, Aquarian angel, conscious breather, plaYogi, inept or adept, cozmic desyner, questioning tyrants, gorilla theater, resisting patriarchy, deep dreamer, self publisher, eco-astrologer, GeoToy makers, open lplayer, still meditator, polarity rebirther, family counselor, Kids Libers, democratic parent, communaliver, big cry baby, compulsive writer, karmic transformer, hamock swinger, vibs watcher, fair witness, outdoor liver, beachmate, bushman, cataclysmic evolutionary wow!