RADICAL TRIPS FROM HAWAII TO OREGON Maui, to Puna, Pahao & Pangaia, Kapoho big isl. to NW in June '97 by ms

Early spr. ;97 i moved from Maui camping out to big isl. invited to stay on 20 acers of fruit tree orchards near Pahoa, where i shipped all my info, to sort out, create some books & do some permaculture in work trade for staying there. Then i stayed at Pangaia for 3 weeks in spr.'97 at Chittas funky out & 'inpost' campsites, as he left for LA. i was reorienting, hidding, depressed, toxic, detached & overeating fresh raw organic fruit daily, not aware that it stressed my liver, after years of the sweet habit in Hawaii. The liver attack began with extreme gas pains from excess fruit sweetened yogurt. I screamed, pucked cried & got acupuncture soon, went home to do enima & heal mostly physicaly. My Puna friends were too busy & scared to help me get into & thru my bad karma fear feelings.

In a few days i moved down to Pangaia, the macho fruit fanatics where friendly, yet distant people. They accepted my need to heal my body there. Pangaia is a unique & strange & unique semi-tropical newage community of Permaculture & mostly raw organic food 'Instincto' religion of daily practice. They had a split then, with cooked fooders creating a kitchen to eat in. This semi-division expressed a silent power-struggle between Manis(the owner) & those workers who needed to eat cooked food. However they shared most the land handi- work cooperatively, even tho Manis made most the decisions about the all land changes. Pangaia is off-the-(Helco 110VAC) using solar power, water catchment & a few power tools.

I was a visitor, too stuborn & sick to help them much, during my recovery phase. I wrote many articles & poems for my books, which i typed, printed on their MAC Powerbooks then, ignoring most the daily hard Permaculture work being done by several others, residents & visitors. Fully in the illusion of people wanting my writing someday, i finished a few books, took some to NW & left most there in storage with friends, goodbye Kids Lib, CozmAstrology & Hawaiian family healing. I needed vast alone space to integrate new info & heal my bodymind slowly growing stronger & clear, willing to serve, but unable to fit in or play free, i learned a lot anyway.

Slowly & gently recovering, feeling rejected, projecting that onto others, taking some Chinese acupuncture & herbs. I put clay, aloe vera & herbs on the 10+ boils that erupted, attempting to clean out the toxics my liver & failed to eliminate, sweat, poop & puke out. The only real Rebirthing i had at Pangaia was when i put ceyane pepper on boils that hurt, so i primal screamed 1/2 hr breathing & freaking out pain. I needed more family & loving touch, or totally alone, which lets me meditate on centers of energy in bliss & pain.

It easily flowed to heal & travel back to Oregon, via SF, Cali to meet Tom & Diane in Sonoma athe Health & Harmony fair. I was sick but had strange strength to travel, sleep out & get some healing energy from the newage healers athe the fair, which was packed, fun, overorganized & not into my deep Aquarian info, oh well, let that go. Good dreams called me on.

After meeting several people there i hitched north to Garberville, i met some KMUD radio folks, who i joined for a live radio drama show there. Later athe yuppy, with hippy area, Benbow fair was more party like meetings. Glad to meet Tom & Diane again, he took me to by remote campsite i stayed at a riverside Redwood park 1 mi from Redway CA for 3 weeks. Very peaceful healing, eating organic vegies & no fruit for weeks, got acupuncture, Reiki & Chinese herbs in town. It was very hot, dry, slow, doing yoga, jumping in the river 2/day, healing, camping out free & invisible in the ancient woods. This retreat from my Aquarian info maniac networking, i deeply needed. Gathering my new eco-energy, meeting souls in Redway & finally hitching north to Oregon, missing the big Rainbow gathering there in July '97, in retreat.

I returned to ultrahip crowded Oregon Country fair to complete some hippy Karma there, meet old friends & get my sleeping bag stolen & loved camping out alone in the woods. Eugene was hot & beautiful in summer, with lots of semi radical activists, few i met & casually liked some Earth Firsters. I camped out by the Willamette river doing more quiet slow natural healing & traveling around town on old womens VW used bike i bot. The Green Tortoise bus took me north & south till the Nov. when i went to Cali to meet T & D again, to trip to yuppy Sedona, as a dream vision guided me to connect with ancient Indian vortex lands.