I DESERVE KARMA Needs to heal Love Balance

We reap what we sow, get what we gave, feel what we denied

Do you deserve your life consequences, results, problems to solve, pains to heal, goals to reach, dreams to recall, memories to let go & people to love? Karma is an eternal principle of multi-causes 7 effects in living patterns, like fractals of evolution. But it's faded into dark past of spiritual faith, beliefs, superstitions & artifacts. Some use it for excusing ones stupid(unconscious) mistakes or blaming karma for causing crises, that we actually cause. Does believing in karma make us responsible for creating experience, enjoying life & loving natural creatures? Or does karma hide how we think, fear & feel that attracts events, challenges, accidents, illness, pollution & people we needs to meet. Is karma the gravity that pulls us together on earth in family dimensions, to learn to love ourselves??????.

What's the source of strange fears, compulsions, nitemares, weird habits, deep faith, long, strong or unmet needs we have, not knowing the source: why do i.........think /fantasy? ..........avoid/fear?..........want/need something now? more than anything else on earth? 1000s of souls have pastlife flashback memories, that change life now & forever it seems. As soon as i learned of "reincarnation & soul rebirth", it seems perfectly logical to explain why we do, feel or fear strange things. It also figures into Jesus statement: "be reborn in the spirit of God" my paraphrase, the Buddhist believe in soul return. But they want to get off the soul 'wheel', more than love life now?! The book "The search for Bridey Murphy", a best-selling U$ mystery 'true' story of hypnotic regression of an American girls, discovering her remote past- life in Ireland. Dozens of similar books tell detailed 'true' stories. My favorites are Edgar Cayce trance channeling on reincarnation pastlives of people he did healing 'readings' for. Helen Wambachs Life Before Life reveals dozens of birth hypnotic session reports from groups she hypnotized in 80s.

The new one i love is Childrens Past Lives by Carol Bowman on her 2 kids & dozens of other dramatic true stories. As soon as one recalls a past-life it often clears up certain mysterious problems now, as any soul healing can do. I feel Karma is all past experience & needs we have to complete in whole patterns of accepting, healing & loving, before we're free to play here now to create instant karma with instincts, intuition & bliss, that frees us to grow more aware! Instinct works thru our innate natural senses flowing & growing energy in balance around our creative centers. I've suffered deeply in this life, with much healing, freelove, bliss, discovery & creating to share openly with other creatures. Each new experience can create a new problems or love to give away.

Karma is the creative family dynamo of human needs to love ourself & relatives. Karma can explain hoWhy we're born into & attracted to our family until we complete our loving relationships with parents & relatives, who've given us a lot of life. Fritz Perls said our Gestalt pattern recognition & self-work now is to complete our past=unfinished business in relationships, like: blame, fear, resentments, jealousy, that surface as conflicts, heavy dreams, fears, injuries & illness. We can carry any old abuse & unmet/unfilled needs from our family dynamics, pregnancy, birthing & bonding with mother, dad, & close relatives, lovers intense friends, doctors, etc. Assuming karma is the great balancer now, we may get what we gave, or suffer what we denied, hate what we craved, heal what we caused, love what we need, feel & accept what we rejected, hurt or killed before now.

Balancing opposites is challenging, or impossible if we strive to keep control on one level, postion or prejudice. Enlitenment is deep learning how we create experience to love it all now, forgive any all mistake, to learn how our energy flows now. Life is full of secret mystery patterns. But if we deny our inner creative mystery of universal spirit, we may chase outer mysteries: detectives, gossip, love dramas, power struggles, war games, UFO/con-spiracy intrigue, body, clothes & car fetishes, continued hate, crav-ing, addiction, terror & chronic ills. What causes them? puzzels us, until we dive deep within our past/childhood life cycles. We can find our hurt, unmet neglected needs, now avoided, desired or even doing to others, what was done to us? Perhaps doing for others what we need, yet don't ask for help now?

I've seen 100s of people, even my parents, slowly killing them-self at home & out, by consuming junk, meat, drugs, smoke, TV & candy. Why? Conversly are the young genius's who have extraordinary talents, from some mysterious past-life source? Often they burn- out/crash or complete it, to become normal adults?! I had no special talents, except no cavities till 16 yrs old, then my teeth got very holey toxic fillings after my painful braces came off. I hated my mother for braces, rules & punishment, & had to heal that to love life. However i had dozens of normal child ills, from piles of junk food i consumed, then began healing that in 1971 asa vegetarian yogi. I didn't become aware of lifenergy till late 20s, in the early '70s cultural revolution of consciousness, with 1000s of others in my Pluto in Leo generaton. In fact i'm now convinced of astrology can explain our potentials, patterns & cycles with a clear birth-chart & current plantsyn transits (movements) that coorelate with our changes on earth. Most pop astrololgy is: 'sun signs, daily trends, character projections, future predictions, general romantic potentials, business power & problem solving. I use it to learn deeper cycles of elemental planetsyn changes & do soul readings of friends seeking some new patterns, causes & effects to grow with now.

For every compulsion, obsession, fascin-ation, repulsion, hate, accident, illness, creative needs & surgery, separation & divorce, birth & death we have some uncon-sciousness, to learn about or repeat the fractal of family karma? "We're fated/ destined to repeat history, until we learn enuf about it, to grow beyond with realizing the origins of our results. Maybe the 'fountain of youth' is being a child in attitude & natural living in balance, clearing up past relations & playing what we enjoy in peace work, self-care & healing. Now being purely In & loving nature, the source of all our organic needs filling with energy we feel young, free to enjoy learning, not like in school.

Instinct is instant karma, here now curiosity, impulses, free learning emotions & consequ-ences of what we do & want! Do we love the past, present or future more or less passion-ately here? Do we want control now?, that we didn't have as children in family, that prevented us exploring nature? Are we over-serving our needs now, that parents defined without asking what we feel & needed then to - be healthy & happy! True karma becomes a spiritual life of self realizing our infinite potentials to spiral around in balance & joy!